Chimere Nicole

I have fallen of the grid for a little bit. This was very intentional as I wanted to refocus on some very important things in my personal life. My days are filled with to do list, enlist responsibilities and a lot of stress. In pursuing these daily goals it’s easy to lose sight on what’s important in life. Building and maintaining relationships while actively pursuing a fulfilling life. Unfortunately, I recently lost my grandfather and the sudden lose has taught me to live my life like there’s no tomorrow. I mean really operate in my purpose. Travel, make memories, and realign my focus on my ultimate goal which is to use my platform to cultivate a generation of young woman to discover their purpose. We like to wait until tomorrow to do things that can be done today. This use to describe me to a T as I would wait until the perfect opportunity to do something.  I love the wow factor when I’m creating, thus this translates into often waiting for the “right time”. But I have learned that there never will be a perfect time. There are momentary seconds in time where you contemplate your actions before the deed is done. I can elaborate on this for a few pages but I’ll keep this post short and sweet. Tomorrow truly isn’t promised. So, what exactly are you waiting for. Will there ever be the “right time”? The answer is NO. Now that you know this, start NOW.

 If you’ve ever experienced death of a loved one the loss and grief you feel is overwhelming. One of the things you may think of is all the what if’s and should of could of’s. All of the things you wish you could have said or differently. I’m trying my best not to focus on this aspect of my loss but to focus on the good memories we shared. Grief can allow you the opportunity to put things into the proper preceptive. We do not know the time or hour of our demise so live within the dash. This is the time in between your birth and death. The dash is the time in your life where to try to live an abundant life. A life full of memories. A life full of service. A life full of meaning, while praying that I impact as many people along the way. This is my ultimate goal. To accomplish all my goals but letting God’s will be done. Whether that’s from teaching you through my tutorials or giving you a peak into my life and struggles. The motive is to incite in you the will to live within your own dash. This life is filled with so many ups and downs and through it all I encourage you to live. This post is dedicated to Abraham Johnson Sr, my grandfather. Rest in peace Pop. You have inspired me to live without regret. This next chapter is dedicated to you.

You are good enough. You are good enough. Yes you! You are good enough. Sometimes you have to repeat it until it sticks and I had to remind myself of this recently. It’s ironic, people can say things to you, thinking that they are “helping” you but don’t realize they are deflecting. Deflecting their own insecurities, emotions, and baggage onto you. In this, the words that are being spoken to you can make you feel sad, insecure, and even depressed. I’m speaking against that right now. That’s why we have to be very careful who we allow to speak into our lives as well as mindful of what we say to others. I’ve learned that sometimes silence is best. Not for them but for you. In these silent moments you must remind yourself that you are enough. Your mistakes don’t define you. Even in your weakest moments, you are enough. When you don’t feel beautiful, you are enough. When the world seems to be against you, YOU ARE ENOUGH. I can’t stress this enough.

As I write this, I’m reminded of a conversation I had recently that made me feel so broken and unworthy. It seemed as though no matter how hard I tried to please people I was never good enough. I just couldn’t get it right. My efforts were being overlooked and only my flaws were highlighted. Does this sound like you? Have you also been in this position or were you the one with the magic marker highlighting all the negative you see in others. If so I encourage you to read my previous blog post (HERE).  My best didn’t seem meet their standards or expectations of what or who I should be. Boy ole boy, I can write a few pages on other people’s expectations for YOUR life. I digress, as I thought over what was said to me I realized that although I’m not perfect my best needs to be enough for me. I can’t and won’t allow anyone to put their expectations of what I should or should not do, feel, or say affect me to the point I feel less than. Not today or any other day for that matter. I AM ENOUGH.

In short, as you continue on your journey to improve yourself mentally and spiritually be mindful of the thoughts you allow to settle into your mind. Speak positivity to yourself and to others. You would be surprised at what a kind word or gesture can do for others. If you are enough then make sure the people you surround yourself with feel like they are enough also. Speak life into your friends and family and continue to encourage yourself.

Have you ever looked in the mirror and starred at yourself? Not in a conceded way but really took a good look at yourself. Some might say when they do that they start seeing dark marks, bags under the eye, or even wrinkles. These are all imperfections. On the outside these are the things we try to cover up with makeup so that the world doesn’t see. We try to cover up our flaws but what about the things people can’t see. When you look into the mirror the reflection that stares back at you shows you something only you can see. Do you like it? Are there things about your reflection that you wish to change? Makeup can only cover you for so long until it starts to separate and reveal what’s underneath.

This is what 2018 has been for me, reflection and revelation. In recent weeks I have done a bit of soul searching and praying and the things I uncovered about myself I was not pleased with, AT ALL. I know at times I can be my own worst critic however there were and are undiscovered truths that I have had to deal with. The bad and the really bad. As you can see I like to use makeup a reference because it’s easy to understand. And like makeup some unresolved truths have a tendency to leave residue behind if not washed away properly. Did you catch that? You can cleanse and deep cleanse much as you like but sometimes there is a residue left behind. 

The thing you now have to ask yourself is how do you go about removing this film, the left-over residue from your past, or even the unresolved issues that reside with you currently. Well I may not have the correct answer to that but, acknowledging the issues are the first step. Trust me, looking at yourself objectively is harder than you think. We all like to think we are God’s gift to mankind and that we aren’t “that bad” but when was the last time to looked at your reflection? As we are about to enter into a new year I challenge you to take a second and look. I mean really look in the mirror and examine yourself. Are you really “Living Your Best Life” or living your best lie. Don’t allow another year to go by and miss out on what God had promised you. Walk in your purpose!

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