I’m currently sitting at my desk in my office and my mind is all over the place. My main thought is, where has this year gone? It has seemed to simply fly by. Although I have had quite an eventful year in my heart I know there’s still more steam left in me. I can feel a shift because my soul isn’t settled, I’m meant for more.
From being Mrs. New Jersey America 2020, competing at Mrs. America, recovering from life-saving breast surgery to homeschooling kids. This year has truly been a rollercoaster ride. Filled with laughter, tears, and so many small victories. I am still thankful for it all. My gratitude journal is filled with pages and pages of small victories.
As I sip my coffee and think of the people in my life and how they have impacted my journey I’m fighting back the tears. I can honestly say, I have met people to have truly changed my life. They altered my mindset and shifted my perspective in a lot of areas. It has helped me understand myself on a deeper level as well as learn what I will and will not allow in my life moving forward. It’s hard to realize that some of these people are only in your life for a season. Although I want things to be different I’m learning that sometimes the hardest thing to do is to simply let go and that holding on does more damage. This journey I’m taking, everyone will not be able to go with me. It hurts like hell but I have to face my new reality.
I have to remind myself that these last three months of 2021 are personal. It’s time to make them count.
Being a goal-oriented person. I thrive on creating small goals that ultimately help me reach the much larger goal. Personally and professionally I created a list of goals I’m aiming to achieve. For the next three months, I will be focusing solely on the career-based goals I’ve set.
In recent months I’ve made time for a lot of things that had no return on the investment. Even now, as I sit here wondering how certain situations in my life have gotten to this point It’s registering that I was giving more than I was receiving. All that time wasted and nothing to show for it. I was investing my time and energy, wanting more than was available, and settling for crumbs being given. Why wait for people to give your the scraps they have leftover? Never again.
We know the saying If you want something bad enough you will find a way or find an excuse. This goes for people and ourselves. We accept excuses from others and ourselves when we know we deserve better and have the capacity to do better. I want better so guess what? These next few months I will be doing the work to receive everything my heart desires. Period. Never wait for others to give you what you can take freely for yourself.
On that note let me give you a quick word.
Queen, if you learn anything from me I pray one of the many lessons is to never dim your light for anyone. Don’t allow anyone to make you feel like your doing too much by being you, treat you like your ordinary, or mistreat you due to your loyalty and or love for them. This goes for family, friends, and relationships. It’s ok to want more. It’s ok to require more. As the saying goes, “If I’m too much, go find less”.
Now, back to our regularly scheduled blog post.
I know what I want, I know what I deserve and I know that no one is going to give it to me but me. Thus, it’s time to buckle down and get to work. I’m removing all of the distractions and focusing solely on this one particular goal. I’ve wanted it for a very long time and I know it’s attainable to me. The best part about it is that if you are reading this post, YOU are a part of the plan.
Looking forward to what the next few months have in store for me. It can only get better from here and I encourage you to take these next few weeks and check off some goals from your list.